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Still Into YouWhy am I still so hung up on you ?!
It's been 9 months 8 days ...
The clock chimes midnight
Another day has passed.
Another day of nothingness,
Another day without you.
I still think about you,
They'll tell me I'm stupid and
I should get over it , but I can't

I no longer sleep at night.
Too busy
Thinking,
Wishing,
Analysing
Everything,
Every conversation,
Smile,
Touch,
Looking desperately for a deeper meaning,
A deeper title than 'just friends' as you repeatedly called us.

I do wonder..
What's it like from your perspective ?
I pass your workplace everyday
Looking in
With hope
That maybe you'll look up and notice me
That I'll s

One or the OtherEither I'm
Starting to
Hate you

Or my loneliness
Has found its voice
And it keens
All night long

The Abuser

hi, there!
i'm casting off all my
bluesy, blowsy layers
untangling the threads of
what shouldn't have stayed
stitching the best bits back
together again
forever and again
i shall be the one you want
(this is heaven, i think
i wouldn't know
but he says it is, so...)

i am designed to please
once i get past what i was
created, now, to be
you need a towering paragon
of strength, of love, of virtue
i can give all that and more
for you won't take the other
you won't take my other self
forget her
(you taste like diamonds
darling of mine
sharp and beautiful)

come, love
bring me back again, please?
when you to

What I Want.No tears, will be here.

Found a broken heart in you;

Your words in my head.

We feel likewise dear.

Perfect footsteps as you walk,

and the things you said.

I struggle and fear,

As my vision tunnels; fades.

Our past is so dead.

I said, what I said,

And you should know what I mean.

This feeds my anger.

Sharp gaze like a spear,

I’d fall forever for you,

If time could just mend.

LiesWhy has reality been hidden from me my entire life?
Why didn't you tell me that it wasn't right from the beginning?
I'm not stupid.
You forced me to grow into an adult as a ten year old, forced me to take the responsibilities of your crimes.
I am the one whose shoulder you always lean on, the ear to whisper everything in.
A person who must always agree with you, without any own opinions.
I guess it was my fault, really.
I could've said no from the very start.
But I was weak.
I was too weak to find out the cold and bitter reality you've hidden from me since I was born.
You lied to me.
You said everything was okay, that we would make it through.
We did, but you never thought of me in the process.
Thought I could take it, because I was considered an adult when I really was a child.
A screaming child.
Crying.
Unknowing.
Sobbing.
A person whose childhood is gone since long.
You took my life away from me.
Made me accept all your lies and comforting words in the

EndBossThis pressure is so thick in my head
I'd rather stay put in my bed
Rather count these lovely flies
And recover from goodbyes

Too many cuts, too many farewells
It's hard to choose between my shells
But I can't live in – I can't breathe in
In and back out, total blackout

Life is becoming unbearable
It's simply because I'm incapable
Of walking onwards, forward
Believing is too much, too hard

At night I'm caught in a rush
My secrets are telling me to hush
I look at the limitless sky - see a wall
No freedom, I stumble, crash and fall

Sometimes I don't even feel the heat
The burning sun, my own heartbeat
I'm freezing but frustrations figh

ArmorLet the wind wipe away my tears.
Let it blow the faith back in me.
You fix my armor, but I'll take it down.
If you're here, then I'm safe and sound.
I'm better of with out.

This is How it FeelsConfined.
Restrained.
Unaligned.
Reclaimed.
Tomorrow.
Goodbye.
Sorrow.
Nearby.
Stand.
You.
Strand.
You.
Fading.
Anyway.
Maybe.
On your way.
Move.
Return.
Groove.
Concern.
Forward.
Like.
Toward.
Psych.
Embrace.
Left.
Face.
Theft.
Fall.
Off.
All.
Soft.
Best.
Ways.
Chest.
Days.
Increase.
Expand.
Cease.
Out of hand.
Much.
Away.
Such.
Stay.
Go.
Favor.
Joe.
Savored.

---

Our time is confined,
our actions restrained.
Three months unaligned
until we're reclaimed.

School's out tomorrow
Where we'll say goodbye.
I'll meet with my sorrow,
not having you nearby.

I can barely stand
the weekends without seeing you.
School's my only strand
of time I CAN

True FriendshipAm I a true friend?
For telling you what is wrong or right,
For giving you a small insight,
For telling it's wrong to bite?
Am I a true friend?
For giving you so much false hope,
For praying that you could cope,
For hoping that you could bear this load.
What is a true friend?
Someone you can tell your lies,
Someone you can share with pride,
Someone that is by your side?
Why be a true friend?
To be that one that could find some fame,
Being with someone to share the blame,
To have some place that you could aim?
There's no such thing as a true friend.
No one is a true friend,
Because true friendship is indefinable.
If you call me a true friend,
So be it.
If you want to be close to me,
So be it.
But if you're looking for a true friend,
you better look somewhere near the lee.
Because your true friend,
Sure as hell isn't me.

Mississippi and Friday NightsIt is a cloudy Friday night during the fall
The full blast of autumn chill is in the air
As one goes by a Mississippi town, both large and small
One could tell that the smell of two cross-town rivals is there

The townspeople can sense when The Big Day comes 'round
They close their stores for their evening in their town

The smell of cooked hamburgers, the aroma of hot dogs capture the senses
But all the action, one hour from now,was about to take place beyond the stadium's fences

Within the walls of the field house stood the visiting team, cleats clomping on the floor
The four school buses that took them there stood parked right near the f

The LetterThe Letter

A creature,

A fiend,

not of Earth, not of Heaven, not of Hell.

The Letter is a creature born from the darkness of the tortured mind.

Conceived out of insecurities and bred through madness and depression.

The worst part, there is no cure for it. There will always be a letter.

Nothing can stop it, not even Jesus himself.

Broken HeartsI swore my heart
and you took it out,
I thought I loved you
but was it true?

I cannot run,
I cannot cry,
I will not even try.
You said something
that broke my heart
and put me in the dark.

I write with an arm
that has been harmed
by a dreadful curse,
that will not heal but get worse.
I hurt myself in the midst of hell,
I hide away in my shell.
My dreams are haunted by your face,
My heart was put in a broken case.

FrostbitePress your lips
against mine,
And breathe out
cold winter winds,
Your fingers touch
the side of my face and the bottom of my heart,
Freezing me
over like the stream yonder
when the snow falls down,
Wrap your cold, dead arms
around me,
And never let go,
Because you are all I have,
And all I will ever have,
For I feel no pull from 'em gals yonder,
Only a slight flick o' my compass
pointing to 'em others,
Whom would never have me,
So I plead ya stay,
With me
my dear
Lady Loneliness.

Dead Hearts.I think from the beginning you had
wanted a broken clock
to fix and turn back the time to all the moments you
had gasped instead of screamed
and whispered instead of cried
And with your hands you built this world
however blaming its imperfections on the clock that
ran its time with the hands you fixed
But tell me again how innocence has to do with
who has the broken bones and bruises
when a mind that matters
shatters between the hands that
built the world that caused the heartache
And still after all this time
you place a boot on my back
bringing me to the brink of extinction
letting me struggle to get the good air when all you
fed me was acr

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by ~FedersStrich, Feb 22, 2013, 1:54:13 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Urban & Spoken Word

wie wir beide gingen
neben.ein.ander
ans gleis
- du auf den zug -
mit unseren gedanken
die sich
so zwillingsähnlich waren

so ähnlich
die stunden
an diese nächte gekettet
die unser atmen bläute
schnell
schneller
das wir endlich
einander atmeten
symbiotisch
zwitterhaft

( wo beginnt das Du -sag
und wo endet das Ich? )

wie die zeit voranschritt
schoben meine hände
wellen in dein haar
( meine angst
du könntest mir entgleiten
mit nur einem wimpernschlag)

auf deinen hautlinien
zärtliche wege
keiner blieb unbewandert
meine finger erkennen sie blind
die deinen
taktstöcke
auf meiner haut

noch immer ein leiser
widerhall:
tamtam
tam
tam....

tagnacht gedankenby ~FedersStrich

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~wallawallaw 6 days ago

ayyy, genau so habe ich es auch schon erlebt, genial

~FedersStrich 4 days ago Writer

Wie mich das freut....dankeschön

~HulioJules Feb 26, 2013

I like it alot!

Einige sehr schöne Bilder!

taktstöcke
auf meiner haut

find ich genial!

Ich kenne das sogar noch aus eigener Erfahrung... ganz ähnliche "Szenen" (was den Zug betrifft vor allem

)
Auch habe ich eine ganz herzliche Verabschiedung zweier sehr alter Männer am Wochenende am Bahnhof miterlebt, die wirklich herzerwärmend war. Wobei mitunter im Alter sowas vielleicht noch viel extremer ist, da man ja mit Mitte 80 eventuell damit rechnen muss, dass man sich vielleicht das letze Mal sieht...

Aber ich schweife ab...

Spontan musste ich am Anfang an ein Gedicht von mir denken, was dann doch nicht SO ähnlich ist... Du und Ich

~FedersStrich Mar 2, 2013 Writer

Vielen Dank,freut mich sehr

~bejay89 Feb 23, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

Dein neues Gedicht ist einfach zauberhaft.
Ich hab es gleich drei Mal gelesen, so schön ist es. Es ist so sehr voller Liebe,
aber auch melancholisch. Es ist wirklich wundervoll

~FedersStrich Feb 24, 2013 Writer

das freut mich,dankeschön

~bejay89 Feb 24, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

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